Palpably Human

I hurt my back.

Quite bad.

In fact, at one point I thought Jesus was taking me home.  I was a wee bit disappointed when after the haze cleared I was in fact lying on my family room floor.

Thankfully, my loving Mother took it upon herself to take my children for a few days so that I could rest.  You can guess the enormity and selflessness of this offer because she suffers from Chronic Neck and Shoulder pain, and has many other obligations she must get done....if I wasn't in such bad shape I would not have put her through it. 

That rest reminded me just how busy I need to keep myself to not go insane.  I enjoyed the peace and quiet for a day.  The second day I had to have the radio and TV on.  The third day I prayed fervently thanking God that He gave me five little people to care for at this stage in my life.  However the positive part of being alone caused me to reflect and plan for the future a bit more. 

The idea my Husband and I have is to raise each of our kids to be self sufficient and out of our house by 18 years old; I may give them a few more years, so let's say 20.  My youngest is 3.  So that means I will be 49 years old when he's gone for good. (I hope)  That is still super young as far as I am concerned.  This caused me to bring forth plans and dreams I had long since tabled after birthing babies.  It got me excited.  I am not suggesting I haven't enjoyed this role as Mother, but since a girl I wanted to do more, experience the world at face value, move, explore, travel, and all the while use my creativity to capture all life has to offer and use the talents God gave me to help others increase their enjoyment.

 Children force roots, which is good.  

One Root will remain after my offspring leave.

I have zero regrets (Besides the things I needed to repent of) because thus far my life has been perfectly executed by its Creator.  

I do remember that no matter what plans I make, God has already set my course, and I can in no way turn from the path He has set me on.  This is in fact very comforting.  He will keep me from stumbling.  Jesus Christ is guiding me as The Perfect Shepard.  I am enjoying my life as much now as I will later.

Whatever my hands find to do, I will do to The Glory Of God. Ecclesiastes 9:10

I will just do it carefully.